Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Songs for Babies, Part I.

Do you ever hear a song and go right back to a certain place in time? I do, frequently. For instance, when I hear Work by Jimmy Eat World, I'm back in my senior year of high school, hanging with Dill in his '03 Elantra, wearing hoodies and jeans and enjoying good conversation.

Anything from Lady Gaga's album The Fame? I'm in my car, making the never-ending commute from KPHO to Bubby, the Arizona sun in my rear-view mirror.

Unfortunately, Owl City takes me to last summer, when I was newly-pregnant with The Smush and feeling horrible. I still get instant morning sickness when I hear anything from that group. Ugghhh.

Today, I was blog-browsing and saw that Jenn over at Baby Making Machine is talking about having a song for her soon-to-be-born baby. I instantly thought of Alicia Keys' song, "No One." That is Bubby's and my song.

Somewhere around October 2007, that song first debuted. I am pretty sure it was before Bubby's birth. Not gonna lie, it annoyed me at first. A lot. I hated it. If it came on the radio when I was driving, I changed the station.

Then one day, shortly after Bubby was born, I was holding her on our ugly plaid couch in our south Provo apartment. She had finally fallen asleep after a long crying session. MTV played in the background. The video for this song came on. My first thought was, "Where's the remote?!?" I couldn't find it. Not wanting to wake my baby, I decided to sit through it. But, I listened closely to the lyrics. And then, it became "our song."

One line hit me particularly hard: "People keep talking, they can say what they like. But all I know is everything's gonna be alright." I had taken a semester off of school to have Bubby. A lot of people doubted I'd ever finish. They said I was too young and I was essentially ruining my life by having a baby. Their doubts started to worry me, I confess. But when I looked at that precious baby, I knew I loved her and I knew I wanted to be the best mom I could be, and for me, that meant finishing my degree.

Which is exactly what I did.

Here it is. Lyrics below.



I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You could be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's gonna be alright

People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is
Everything's gonna be alright

And no one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel
For you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's gonna be alright

People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is
Everything's gonna be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel
For you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide something so real
So 'til the end of time
I'm telling you there is

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

4 comments:

  1. Good post Jenna. I just have to admit that I am freaked out about having a baby and still finishing school but then I look at you and think, "If Jenna can do it, I can do it!!".

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  2. Love it! I too have had doubts about having a baby before finishing school because I'm so afraid I'll throw my hands up in the air and call it quits. How much school did you have left when you took a semester off?

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  3. Well, Bubby was 18 months old when I graduated. I didn't have a lot of credit hours left, but I could only go part-time after she was born so it took 18 months. It still only took 3 1/2 years total, though!

    Jessica, you can do it! It's hard, but definitely possible.

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  4. Jenna, I think I have a woman crush on you. Not the lesbian kind, but the kind that's like "wow... I admire you!"

    Seriously, it's crazy how you're younger than me, have two kids, yet you flew through college, got gigs going from home... You rock!
    I want to be like you when I grow up.

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